Today was the day! I woke up at 4:30am only to arrive at Logan to find out that my plane was delayed an hour...which turned into three hours. So it is now 9pm in San Francisco—meaning I've been awake since 1am San Francisco time—, I'm completely wiped, and this is gonna be the shortest update post ever.
A few moments from the day:
- Friends- I finished watching Friends (2 years after starting) while at Logan! Completely irrelevant to anything else in my life but it felt like a sad yet fitting symbol of the end of something (and the start of something new?).
- Looking out the plane window above SF (see photo above)- While I'm trying to be intentional about taking photos, looking down at California gave me such deja-vu to looking down from plane windows over the summer, and specifically the feeling of awe while flying over the lush green mountains by Cape Town after two months of seeing only desert. It also gave me a better sense of the Bay area's watershed, which came up in some of our pre-departure readings.
- "Imagine a building like a tree, a city like a forest" (Cradle to Cradle)- This quotation came up during our launch coordinator's presentation about the next few weeks. It's going to be PACKED—not sure what else I was expecting—and even though everything looks interesting and exciting to me, I'm still a bit nervous about keeping energy levels and spirits up. But I liked this quote about William McDonough's vision for the future of urban design.
- Getting settled into the hostel- I'm in a room with two bunkbeds and three other roommates, and it felt SO GOOD to unpack and make my bed and get a better sense of how I'll live out of a backpack for the next four months. We had done some icebreakers as a group after dinner, so everyone kind of knew each other and are friendly, and I'm just so relieved now to be in my bed for the night (top bunk by the window). Yes, at 9pm.
I'll end on the note of what I shared was my biggest hope for the semester. Though I'm sure a lot of the next few months are going to be me trying to figure out the meaning behind WHY I'm in all these places and doing these things, it has become such a core part of my personal philosophy to put myself in the situations in which I'll be the most uncomfortable. Which seems great for personal growth, but also really sucks at the beginnings of things, as I sat on the plane thinking, "I know I would be so freaking happy at school right now, instead of stressed out and anxious about the uncertainty of the entire next semester." (I didn't share that part; that's just background info.) But I think it's just so important for me to be constantly recontextualizing myself, especially after feeling as though I had stagnated a bit at Harvard, to figure out what I like and don't like in terms of relationships/homes/ways of existence, want and don't want out of life, and can and can't do. And I hope for this semester that I surprise myself by how much I can do.
So in the midst of a lot of uncertainty and anxiety and newness, I'm trying to hold onto a really beautiful, optimistic idea that Elodie (who's studying abroad in Paris) wrote in my goodbye letter:
That's all for now! Good night!